Showing posts with label I Think I Can. Show all posts
Showing posts with label I Think I Can. Show all posts

Friday, October 30, 2015

I'm Wheeling In The Rain

  Sometimes it's hard to maneuver my wheelchair and hold on to things, but it can be especially tough when the elements are working against me.

  I was getting ready for work one morning. The sky was dark with rain clouds, though the forecast promised it wouldn't start raining until the afternoon.

"Do you have an extra umbrella?" I asked my parents. 

"Here," my dad said, handing me one from their closet. 

"Thanks," I put it in my backpack on the back of my wheelchair and headed out the door. 

  I didn't like driving in the rain and was really grateful it hadn't begun, but I'd left a few minutes early just in case. I arrived a half hour before my shift. I considered going into work, but since it didn't rain I used the extra time to stop at my favorite cafe for coffee and a blueberry muffin.

  Big mistake.

  As I sat at my usual spot by the window awaiting my order, it began to rain. The waitress arrived with a fresh pot of coffee and a hot blueberry muffin, which she placed in front of me.

"I hope you brought an umbrella," she said, as she poured the coffee.

"Oh yes, in my back pack," I assured her.

  I reached inside my bag, beside the umbrella and pulled out a book. It was the perfect morning. I wished I could spend the rest of the day with my nose in a book, nibbling my blueberry muffin and sipping coffee to the steady rhythm of pouring rain.

  After finishing my first cup of coffee, I looked at my watch. I had five minutes. It would take me that long to get there. The rain let up, but there was still a light drizzle. I debated waiting a bit longer, but decided not to. I got into my van barely dampened and drove down the street to work.

  When I pulled into the parking lot, I was shocked to find there was nowhere to park. My job was at a call center and although we shared a building with two other businesses, we rarely had an issue with parking. I drove around to the other parking lot and saw the issue -- Road Work.

"Where do they expect me to park?" I fumed at no one.

  I drove around the block and finally found a spot across the street.

"Well, at least it quit raining," I said out loud.

  I should have kept my mouth shut.

  A loud boom of thunder, then the rain came down in sheets. I sat frozen in disbelief for a moment. Then I looked at my watch. I was already ten minutes late. I would surely be reprimanded. I was not a tardy person, but the policies were strict - first time offense put you on automatic probation. I would have gone home, called in, but I was never good about making excuses. I just wasn't raised that way. So I got my umbrella out and exited my van.

  Getting my wheelchair out of the van was easy. All I had to do was push a few buttons and the automatic door would open, a claw would swing the wheelchair out, lower it and that was it. All I had to do was unstrap it. Thanks to the gust of wind that accompanied the rain, the wheelchair was blown violently against the van.

"Oh come on!" I shouted in frustration.

  I crawled over the backseat and leaned out to steady the wheelchair as it lowered to the ground. As soon as it was down I climbed back up front to turn off the van and retrieve the umbrella.

  The lift and back door worked weather the van was on or off thanks to the back up battery, so once I climbed out of the back door and into the chair, I opened the umbrella and moved away from the van to close it up with the remote. I put the remote and keys in my purse, adjusted my wheelchair settings and waited at the curb for my chance to cross the street.

  Suddenly, a gust of wind attempted to sweep the umbrella out of my grasp. I struggled with it as the signal to cross began flashing. I steered the wheelchair gear forward with my right hand, while the left was fighting a losing battle. I made it across the street and I thought I'd finally be able to beat the wind, but the rain fell harder and in combination with another gust of wind, turned my umbrella inside out!

"Fine!" I shouted, "Take it!" and I threw the broken umbrella on the sidewalk.

  The rain continued its steady downpour as I rolled down the sidewalk, up the ramp and into the office building. I entered the room where our cubicles were, some of my coworkers eyeing me with sadness, amusement or shock. I wheeled up to my supervisor and she covered her mouth. She was probably concerned about showing the appropriate response. I probably looked pathetic - a tiny girl in a wheelchair, drenched, shivering, on the verge of tears.

"I know I'm late, but can I go to the bathroom to dry off?" I asked in a low voice.

"Yes," she said, "and don't worry about being late -- are you okay?" she said, concerned.

"The wind broke my umbrella," I answered.

"Okay, go get dried off," she said.

  Later, when I came back to my desk there was a tall black umbrella leaning against it with a note that said:

This one is wind proof.

  And it was.


Tuesday, June 16, 2015

The Little Wheelchair That Could

Going downhill is fun. Going up is not.

  I'm used to having people push me up ramps or having my electric wheelchair, but one day I was not so lucky. My best friend/sister from high school started working retail at the mall after she graduated. A year older, I got my first car and was really excited at the chance to pick her up from work. I drove around the lot for five minutes looking for a handicapped parking spot. However, it was Saturday afternoon and summertime so naturally the mall was packed with shoppers and kids meeting up at the connected movie theater.

  Soon, I lost patience with waiting for a spot to open up and resorted to finding a parking spot in the regular lot. However, I couldn't find a place that would allow me enough space to get my wheelchair out and realized that I would have to park at the back of the lot. I parked the van and pulled out my cellphone to text my friend:

U R gonna have to meet me outside. Lot is full, couldn't find a spot up front.

  A few minutes later she called me.

"Hey, I gotta get my paycheck. Can you meet me inside? I wanted to get some shopping done while I'm here."

"Sure sis." I said and hung up.

  I scanned the parking lot. It still looked pretty full and I doubted any handicapped spots were open yet. It wasn't the distance that had me weary of getting out of the van. If it had been a straight cruise to the front doors, I'd have wheeled out there twenty minutes earlier. The store where my friend worked was located on the second floor of the mall. The parking lot was on a steep hill. A concrete sidewalk sloped down from the double door entrance and ended near my parking spot. It was the steepest ramp I'd ever used and I was going to have to push myself up it!

  For a moment, I thought about calling my friend and asking her to come help me (she would have in a heartbeat), but as I looked at that hill I felt a familiar urge to prove that I could overcome this new challenge. Anytime there is an obstacle in my way, I am always reminded of something my dad said to me anytime I thought I couldn't do something as a kid: You are an Elliott, you are strong. And you are a child of God. You can do all things because he gives you strength. These words have always resonated in me, every time I've faced something that seemed beyond my capabilities.

  I got my wheelchair out and made my way to the sidewalk. Slowly, I began pushing myself upward. As I pushed myself inch by inch up the hill, I rotated my thoughts between the bible quote, "I can do all things..." and my altered version of the little engine's, "I think I can (I know I can)..." About halfway up I had to stop and take a few breathes. That is when someone approached me.

"Would you like me to push you?" The stranger kindly offered.

  Now, given that it was ninety degrees outside and I was aching in my arms and back, the smart thing to do would be to accept this awesome person's kindness, but pride got the better of me.

"No thank you. This is how I get my exercise." I tried to smile convincingly.

  The person didn't insist. Sometimes, people are afraid to offer me help, because they think it will offend me. I have been told I give off a vibe of strong independence and I am glad I do, but sometimes I don't know when to ask for help. This was one of those times.

  After the person left, I continued to push myself upward. However, my hands had become really sweaty and it is hard to grip the wheel rims with wet palms. As I began to lose grasp, I could feel gravity play tug of war with the wheelchair, and gravity was wining. I started to roll backward! I quickly took control of the situation, by grasping one wheel tightly and spinning myself around, so that I could cruise down the hill forward, instead of back.

  I managed to stop the chair before it went down, and that is when a weird idea struck. My feet were able to touch the ground, so instead of going downward I used my feet to assist me in pushing myself backwards the rest of the way up the hill. It was not the most conventional way of going up a ramp, but it was a hell of a lot easier than relying solely on my fragile arms and sweaty palms. Finally, I made it to the top! I stared down the hill in triumph. When I told my friend about what I'd done, she looked at me in shock,

"You could have just parked on the other side."

  Of course. There are no hills on the other side.